We rocked and bopped our little bazoozies off today helping all the kiddies put their Valentine cards in classmates' bags. Now I can open my bag, and the results are surprising. The lead is more splattered than the Republican presidential race. Disney Princesses do not control the girl constituency this year. No superhero in a flying cape offers hope of rescue. No movie tie-in dominates thanks to some superPAC money. A Ron Paul faction made their own Valentines.
Results:
Cars movie /
Hot Wheels /
Transformers /
Trains /
Samurai Power Rangers /
Phineas & Ferb (a cartoon show I'd never seen) /
Kitties //
Doggies ///
Whale /
Disney Mickey Mouse //
Disney Princesses /
Kung Fu Panda /
Etch art dinosaur bones by Mello Smello with poke-UR-eye-out stylus /
Origami fortune teller /
Fun foam insect with googly eyes /
BFF /
Hand-colored heart-shaped paper doily /
Tempera paintings //
Colored pencil drawings //
Eames rocking chair / I'm not kidding! I got a kiddie Valentine with my all-time favorite chair!
Chalkboard coffee mug / [Yes, a coffee mug I can write on with chalk. It comes with warnings that chalk is not edible. This is also an excellent tongue-twister, as I kept saying "chalk bug coffee morgue", but then I also couldn't say "My spicy soup makes my nose drip" three times fast at lunchtime.]
Shoulda worn my pink poodle skirt for the hop at school. I'm so glad my granddoggy is a schnauzer/yorkie mix. It would be embarrassing to have a porkie, dorkie, doodle, or schnoodle in the family.
And now let's pop Schnyidarmarink a Dink a Dink on the hi-fi turntable.
© 2012 Nancy L. Ruder
Teaching art with itty bitty students, exploring creativity, finding new passions and purpose, and enjoying the progress of my three greatest works of art out there in the big world.
2/12/12
Not Mission Impossible, nor quick as a bunny
ALL I KNOW IS I KNOW NOTHING. What I learned about downloading an eBook from my public library to my Kindle:
DO NOT BE IN A HURRY.
The delivery of library eBooks is not through the miracles of the 3g Whispernet. That is the instantaneous way I have obtained Kindle books while sitting in LaGuardia and Midway terminals during delays.
KNOW THYSELF:
I needed my library patron number and PIN, plus my Amazon account ID and password. I needed patience, perseverance, and intestinal fortitude!
The delivery of library eBooks selected from Overdrive at my library's website is via Wi-Fi. Early Kindles like mine don't have Wi-Fi access because they are not wearing Mr. Spock's ears. That means when Overdrive takes me from the checkout to Amazon's Public Library Kindle site, I have to read all the instructions. This is usually against my religion, so let me say it again:
READ ALL THE INSTRUCTIONS ON THE SCREEN.
Then I click on the "Manage My Kindle" tab to work through the process of downloading the eBook to my computer and transferring it to my Kindle by way of a USB connection. This is not pretty. I have some USB port problems so it took awhile to get my computer to find a driver for my Kindle.
So, I was back to the Beatles...I've got a driver and that's a start. Then it is a matter of using Windows to see the files on my Kindle and drag my eBook downloads to the Kindle documents file. Now that I have them downloaded, I kinda wish I'd selected some books I actually cared to read! My efforts were as a guinea pig/crash test dummy for the library, and I had the smarts for the part.
Since I don't actually want to read either the owner's manual for my brain or Calvin Trillin, I found that I could return the eBooks to my library from Amazon's "Manage My Kindle" page by clicking on the "Actions" button. If I don't return the eBooks within fourteen days, they will self-destruct, with no overdue fines.
© 2012 Nancy L. Ruder
DO NOT BE IN A HURRY.
The delivery of library eBooks is not through the miracles of the 3g Whispernet. That is the instantaneous way I have obtained Kindle books while sitting in LaGuardia and Midway terminals during delays.
KNOW THYSELF:
I needed my library patron number and PIN, plus my Amazon account ID and password. I needed patience, perseverance, and intestinal fortitude!
The delivery of library eBooks selected from Overdrive at my library's website is via Wi-Fi. Early Kindles like mine don't have Wi-Fi access because they are not wearing Mr. Spock's ears. That means when Overdrive takes me from the checkout to Amazon's Public Library Kindle site, I have to read all the instructions. This is usually against my religion, so let me say it again:
READ ALL THE INSTRUCTIONS ON THE SCREEN.
Then I click on the "Manage My Kindle" tab to work through the process of downloading the eBook to my computer and transferring it to my Kindle by way of a USB connection. This is not pretty. I have some USB port problems so it took awhile to get my computer to find a driver for my Kindle.
So, I was back to the Beatles...I've got a driver and that's a start. Then it is a matter of using Windows to see the files on my Kindle and drag my eBook downloads to the Kindle documents file. Now that I have them downloaded, I kinda wish I'd selected some books I actually cared to read! My efforts were as a guinea pig/crash test dummy for the library, and I had the smarts for the part.
Since I don't actually want to read either the owner's manual for my brain or Calvin Trillin, I found that I could return the eBooks to my library from Amazon's "Manage My Kindle" page by clicking on the "Actions" button. If I don't return the eBooks within fourteen days, they will self-destruct, with no overdue fines.
...As always, should you or any of your IM force be caught or killed, the Librarian will disavow any knowledge of your actions. Good luck, Jim. This tape will self-destruct in five seconds.
© 2012 Nancy L. Ruder
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Will there be treats?
Yes. The world is full of treats.
Friday this little woodpecker put on a fabulous show for the children at recess and didn't even mind when small groups went closer with a teacher. The kids were in awe. Some had heard a woodpecker before, but never seen one. Some wanted a woodpecker for their very own yard!
My condo neighbors managed to fix my mailbox, at least for the present. That was a treat to find when I got home. My computer still has mysterious issues.
We have been so busy celebrating the one hundredth day of school in the preschool classroom that we forgot to get ready for Valentine's Day. I was trying to explain XOXOX to the kids, along with the procedure for the Valentine exchange. The whole Valentine phenomenon is a mystery for many of our international families.
Arriving at my Saturday library job I was delighted to find this Lincoln Continental parked in the drive of a McMansion under construction.
What was the message here?
A flashback to great autos I have loved? My next door neighbor in the early Sixties had a pink Continental like this, and I got to ride in it a few times, feeling like Cinderella.
© 2012 Nancy L. Ruder
Friday this little woodpecker put on a fabulous show for the children at recess and didn't even mind when small groups went closer with a teacher. The kids were in awe. Some had heard a woodpecker before, but never seen one. Some wanted a woodpecker for their very own yard!
My condo neighbors managed to fix my mailbox, at least for the present. That was a treat to find when I got home. My computer still has mysterious issues.
We have been so busy celebrating the one hundredth day of school in the preschool classroom that we forgot to get ready for Valentine's Day. I was trying to explain XOXOX to the kids, along with the procedure for the Valentine exchange. The whole Valentine phenomenon is a mystery for many of our international families.
Arriving at my Saturday library job I was delighted to find this Lincoln Continental parked in the drive of a McMansion under construction.
What was the message here?
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| Baby, you can drive my car? |
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| A Mafia body in the trunk? |
A flashback to great autos I have loved? My next door neighbor in the early Sixties had a pink Continental like this, and I got to ride in it a few times, feeling like Cinderella.
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| Maybe the message is just Xs and Os. |
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2/10/12
Where to begin? Where do we end? What to wear? Will there be treats?
So far behind. Lately I've been very happy to wear my New Balance walking shoes because they ARE NOT WHITE. They look more like short hiking boots than peri-geezerette non-running shoes.
My dear Organic Cousin's Ex-Wife lost her elderly mother recently. Well, her mother is not really lost, just departed after a fall, many broken vertebrae, and pneumonia. My OCExW says that the deceased have forty-one days to move on, but until then they can make phantom telephone calls, ringing and ringing on a nonexistent cellphone. She and her husband and a friend heard it several times. For real. Okay, just so the deceased don't send text messages. I don't have an unlimited message plan! Maybe Dad is just messing a bit with my computer and/or my condo mailbox. Something is definitely messing with both of them.
When I walk the under/over trail in Richardson, I keep tabs on the new grass growing through the plastic netting used to control erosion. Get fun sparkly effects as the sun heads down.
And that is all for now.
© 2012 Nancy L. Ruder
2/5/12
2/4/12
Weber mentor
Danger Baby and his lovely bride are here this weekend helping me in numerous ways. First we worked through all the issues for Dad's estate and learned about probate in Collin County. This will be a new adventure, and I am glad to have his legal-type thinking helping me sort it out. Looking at the various accounts was pretty daunting on my own.
They have also been helping me with long-delayed condo maintenance tasks. Days were not long enough, and my energy didn't go far enough for any problem in the mere annoyance category.
Perhaps most satisfying, Danger Baby is teaching me to use the Weber Q-Baby gas grill Dad won in a drawing sponsored by Miller Genuine Draft at HyVee years ago. Dad already had a grill, so this one went into his basement and sat unused. I brought it back to Texas in the Buick on one of my last Nebraska trips, but we had burn bans due to the drought. Burning down the condo complex would not win me friends. Plus, I just didn't get the whole fifty pound propane tank concept.
Now I know the Weber uses little baby 14.1 ounce propane bottles even I can lift. Tonight I will have a lesson with the Grill Meister making honey barbecue chicken, corn, and asparagus. I think Howie, that old charcoal perfectionist, would be pleased. He may even be present.
And in the big rule of life category, You Must Be Present To Win.
© 2011 Nancy L. Ruder
They have also been helping me with long-delayed condo maintenance tasks. Days were not long enough, and my energy didn't go far enough for any problem in the mere annoyance category.
Perhaps most satisfying, Danger Baby is teaching me to use the Weber Q-Baby gas grill Dad won in a drawing sponsored by Miller Genuine Draft at HyVee years ago. Dad already had a grill, so this one went into his basement and sat unused. I brought it back to Texas in the Buick on one of my last Nebraska trips, but we had burn bans due to the drought. Burning down the condo complex would not win me friends. Plus, I just didn't get the whole fifty pound propane tank concept.
Now I know the Weber uses little baby 14.1 ounce propane bottles even I can lift. Tonight I will have a lesson with the Grill Meister making honey barbecue chicken, corn, and asparagus. I think Howie, that old charcoal perfectionist, would be pleased. He may even be present.
And in the big rule of life category, You Must Be Present To Win.
© 2011 Nancy L. Ruder
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2/2/12
Dog and macaw show
Flashback to last Friday--Oh, how can it be almost a week ago already? I took a break from sitting beside Dad's bed, and entrusted him over to the care of the round-the-clock nurse. Got a Subway sandwich and drove to my favorite Plano park. Starting down the trail I saw a young family soaking up the sunshine on this beautiful afternoon:
The scene did more for me than the sandwich, and I set off on a quick walk around the lake. Circling back toward the Buick the family scene got even better:
Back beside Dad under the hypnotic spell of the respirator, I wondered about the meaning of "dog and pony show". In my experience it is used to mean the peons are trotting out their whole underfunded bag of tricks to entertain an entitled, blasé audience. The dog and macaw experience seemed gloriously authentic. If I'd had more time I would have requested a ride in the wagon!
I still remember my dad taking me to watch many kite-flyers at Pioneers Park. Dad flew a basic Ben Franklin Five & Dime box kite, red and green. There were so many flyers I can't imagine how they stayed untangled.
I read The Kite Runner in Dad's hospital room five years ago, after he broke his hip the second time. It was a time suspended without night or day, tangled between reality and hallucination. This vigil I read Elmore Leonard's new Raylan, which was not so deep. Elmore Leonard is still writing entertaining crime dialogue at age eighty-six. I hope I'm still blogging about kites in 2041!
© 2011 Nancy L. Ruder
- Two parents lounging on an old quilt next to a cooler
- One toddler sitting up in a patch of grass under the watchful eye of a small dog
- One preschooler sitting in a little red wagon supervised by a big dog
The scene did more for me than the sandwich, and I set off on a quick walk around the lake. Circling back toward the Buick the family scene got even better:
- Dad throwing a frisbee for the small dog to the delight of the toddler
- Mom flying a gorgeous macaw kite
- Big dog pulling the red wagon and preschooler around in circles in the meadow
"That's a great kite," I hollered at the mom, craning my neck and squinting up into the bright blue sky. "Twelve dollars at Costco," she hollered back.
Back beside Dad under the hypnotic spell of the respirator, I wondered about the meaning of "dog and pony show". In my experience it is used to mean the peons are trotting out their whole underfunded bag of tricks to entertain an entitled, blasé audience. The dog and macaw experience seemed gloriously authentic. If I'd had more time I would have requested a ride in the wagon!
I still remember my dad taking me to watch many kite-flyers at Pioneers Park. Dad flew a basic Ben Franklin Five & Dime box kite, red and green. There were so many flyers I can't imagine how they stayed untangled.
I read The Kite Runner in Dad's hospital room five years ago, after he broke his hip the second time. It was a time suspended without night or day, tangled between reality and hallucination. This vigil I read Elmore Leonard's new Raylan, which was not so deep. Elmore Leonard is still writing entertaining crime dialogue at age eighty-six. I hope I'm still blogging about kites in 2041!
© 2011 Nancy L. Ruder
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1/31/12
The ducks at the end of the tunnel
The bereavement counselor assures me I will feel much worse soon, but she will be available to assist me for the next thirteen months. This fails to dampen my general mood of relief bordering on resurgence. I feel like I'm emerging from a very long tunnel. I already have two more hours in every day, and an enormous weight off my shoulders.
Did Dad see the light at the end of the tunnel? I don't know. He was not able to provide hints to those of us monitoring his crossing.
My ducks are not in a row. I still don't know diddly about probate, except that it's beneficial for some attorney$. My ducks are under Custer Road up by Schimelpfenig Library. Make way.
© 2011 Nancy L. Ruder
Did Dad see the light at the end of the tunnel? I don't know. He was not able to provide hints to those of us monitoring his crossing.
My ducks are not in a row. I still don't know diddly about probate, except that it's beneficial for some attorney$. My ducks are under Custer Road up by Schimelpfenig Library. Make way.
© 2011 Nancy L. Ruder
1/30/12
If you're okapi and you know it
Clap your hands!
WARNING: This will be a long commentary vaguely resembling that potpie in the oven when you realized your heating element bit the dust.
Hauled the box with the boys' baby things down from the top closet shelf, and an okapi fell on my head. This okapi is losing its fuzz, so I'm not going to save it with the Fisher Price Zoo for posterity. And, FYI, this is how you pronounce okapi.
Here are the baby things I saved for Mr. Speech and Debate. The tiny yellow Speedo will fit in a standard size mailing envelope. The hoodie will be right in style. There's a beautiful white blanket knit by one of my aunts that I will mail along with the fashions.
Turning pages in the latest Lands' End catalog I was stunned to find I could look like the bobble head gal in the Progressive Insurance ads for $40.00, just not in white. Why would anyone want to do that? I guess the Progressive ads are successful since they are burned on my retinas, but they never make sense.
In that same catalog I caught my breath on the page with the rope chair in the background. What rope chair? The same rope chair in the background of a hundred photos of my young sons.
Everything old is new again!
On the left, a deedly dumpling Danger Baby, winter '85-'86. On the right, Lands' End crop leggings with the chair. We got the rope chair in 1980, and had it at least a dozen years, along with a matching ottoman and rocking chair. That takes my family through the births of three sons and moves to five houses.
No matter how you search, you will not find this Lyle the Crocodile Halloween costume/fleece jammie suit in the Lands' End catalog. It is modeled by Mr. Speech and Debate in 1984.
The Woolly Mammoth lounges in the rope rocking chair, circa 1990. Obviously a good way to relax after a nunchucks workout!
When my life passes before my eyes, there will always be chairs in the background.
© 2012 Nancy L. Ruder
WARNING: This will be a long commentary vaguely resembling that potpie in the oven when you realized your heating element bit the dust.
Hauled the box with the boys' baby things down from the top closet shelf, and an okapi fell on my head. This okapi is losing its fuzz, so I'm not going to save it with the Fisher Price Zoo for posterity. And, FYI, this is how you pronounce okapi.
Here are the baby things I saved for Mr. Speech and Debate. The tiny yellow Speedo will fit in a standard size mailing envelope. The hoodie will be right in style. There's a beautiful white blanket knit by one of my aunts that I will mail along with the fashions.
Turning pages in the latest Lands' End catalog I was stunned to find I could look like the bobble head gal in the Progressive Insurance ads for $40.00, just not in white. Why would anyone want to do that? I guess the Progressive ads are successful since they are burned on my retinas, but they never make sense.
In that same catalog I caught my breath on the page with the rope chair in the background. What rope chair? The same rope chair in the background of a hundred photos of my young sons.
Everything old is new again!
On the left, a deedly dumpling Danger Baby, winter '85-'86. On the right, Lands' End crop leggings with the chair. We got the rope chair in 1980, and had it at least a dozen years, along with a matching ottoman and rocking chair. That takes my family through the births of three sons and moves to five houses.
No matter how you search, you will not find this Lyle the Crocodile Halloween costume/fleece jammie suit in the Lands' End catalog. It is modeled by Mr. Speech and Debate in 1984.
The Woolly Mammoth lounges in the rope rocking chair, circa 1990. Obviously a good way to relax after a nunchucks workout!
When my life passes before my eyes, there will always be chairs in the background.
© 2012 Nancy L. Ruder
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1/29/12
1/26/12
Today a different pink
I would go get some Pepto Bismal but it seems like way too much trouble. The preschoolers have shared their stomach virus, so here I am under two sweatshirts and six blankets waiting to see how the slice of toast and warm tea will sit.
Yesterday before the arrival of the intestinal insurrection, I began reading Stephen Glain's State Vs. Defense : The Battle To Define America's Empire. If I can make it through it may be as upsetting and eye-opening as The Omnivore's Dilemma.
My mom seems close. There is a busy junco out on the patio looking for soggy treats between the potted plants. The sun is finally out. Oh, now there are three juncos. It won't take many more than that to lift Dad and fly him away.
A nurse called to tell me the skin on Dad's heels is breaking down. Hospice says this is part of the process.
© 2011 Nancy L. Ruder
Yesterday before the arrival of the intestinal insurrection, I began reading Stephen Glain's State Vs. Defense : The Battle To Define America's Empire. If I can make it through it may be as upsetting and eye-opening as The Omnivore's Dilemma.
My mom seems close. There is a busy junco out on the patio looking for soggy treats between the potted plants. The sun is finally out. Oh, now there are three juncos. It won't take many more than that to lift Dad and fly him away.
A nurse called to tell me the skin on Dad's heels is breaking down. Hospice says this is part of the process.
© 2011 Nancy L. Ruder
1/25/12
and outside the window, falling rain
Directed elsewhere. Looking for information about fingers and toes in the final stages of life. Instead I found myself reading "Aristotle" by Billy Collins.
Dad held his left side with his right hand when he wasn't raising that arm to help clear his airways. He got down a 4 oz. protein shake in tiny sips. His fingers look oddly red inside a translucent skin--raw hamburger in a latex glove.
An elephant crashing through the roof? Should I go upstairs expecting a leaking disaster? We had five inches of rain since school dismissal Tuesday. It seems better to stay downstairs in the condo and ignorant.
Swallowing a bit better, Dad got down three ounces of applesauce with cinnamon. The thunder and rain bands have move east.
The tv news is all about half-submerged SUVs under flooded overpasses. Soggy upholstery unanticipated. Weather reports unconsulted. Preschoolers arriving in capri pants and short sleeves. An elephant crashing? Be forewarned and forearmed in prophylactic attire. Dang cold in the sharp wind and mist at school dismissal. Oh, did you mean that weather was for moi????
The preschoolers would love it if I read The Piggy In the Puddle every single afternoon. The repetition helps them feel confident, and the language lights up all sorts of little twinkly synapses. The piggy is in the very merry middle of the muddy little puddle, diving way down derry. The preschoolers chime in, "What you need is lots of SOAP!"
The piggy may also be in the middle of a January NPR pledge drive. Wait, wait! Life is one long pledge drive, and then you finally meet your matching challenge grant?
© 2011 Nancy L. Ruder
Dad held his left side with his right hand when he wasn't raising that arm to help clear his airways. He got down a 4 oz. protein shake in tiny sips. His fingers look oddly red inside a translucent skin--raw hamburger in a latex glove.
An elephant crashing through the roof? Should I go upstairs expecting a leaking disaster? We had five inches of rain since school dismissal Tuesday. It seems better to stay downstairs in the condo and ignorant.
Swallowing a bit better, Dad got down three ounces of applesauce with cinnamon. The thunder and rain bands have move east.
The tv news is all about half-submerged SUVs under flooded overpasses. Soggy upholstery unanticipated. Weather reports unconsulted. Preschoolers arriving in capri pants and short sleeves. An elephant crashing? Be forewarned and forearmed in prophylactic attire. Dang cold in the sharp wind and mist at school dismissal. Oh, did you mean that weather was for moi????
The preschoolers would love it if I read The Piggy In the Puddle every single afternoon. The repetition helps them feel confident, and the language lights up all sorts of little twinkly synapses. The piggy is in the very merry middle of the muddy little puddle, diving way down derry. The preschoolers chime in, "What you need is lots of SOAP!"
The piggy may also be in the middle of a January NPR pledge drive. Wait, wait! Life is one long pledge drive, and then you finally meet your matching challenge grant?
© 2011 Nancy L. Ruder
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Say that three times fast!
Severely diminished lower left lung lobe. That is Dad's latest issue, and if it wasn't so sad, it would be a good tongue twister. He started on a "prophylactic antibiotic" yesterday to ward off pneumonia. I would be happier if medical folks just said "antibiotic as a preventive measure".
You put that pink Amoxil in what???
Dad is breathing a bit easier this evening, so I let him sleep and came on home in the rain. Big Red will try to spoon in some pureed supper gunk if Dad wakes up.
I walked yesterday while fooling with my newly rediscovered digital zoom and optical zoom features on my camera. This did not make for an aerobic jaunt or good photos, but a January walk in shirtsleeves is a gift. And sometimes reading the owner's manual is actually helpful. Who knew?
This post was not about pink when I started, but these things happen. Maybe it's time for Lucy in the sky to wear rose-colored glasses.
Stunned to find blooming camellias in a little garden at the Dallas Arboretum. I listened to the The Elegance of the Hedgehog audiobook last year, but I didn't really understand about camellias. There's still a note in my bathroom drawer brain from that book about "the always in the never."
Having a brain in a drawer is helpful for those three a.m. questions. When Dad walked up the hill from the bus stop after a day at work, we kids would meet him. Then we would watch him as he emptied the change from his pants pocket and the brains from his shirt pocket. Dad's brains were printed in neat draftsman lettering on tiny folded bits of paper. My brains are never so tidy.
© 2012 Nancy L. Ruder
You put that pink Amoxil in what???
Dad is breathing a bit easier this evening, so I let him sleep and came on home in the rain. Big Red will try to spoon in some pureed supper gunk if Dad wakes up.
I walked yesterday while fooling with my newly rediscovered digital zoom and optical zoom features on my camera. This did not make for an aerobic jaunt or good photos, but a January walk in shirtsleeves is a gift. And sometimes reading the owner's manual is actually helpful. Who knew?
This post was not about pink when I started, but these things happen. Maybe it's time for Lucy in the sky to wear rose-colored glasses.
Stunned to find blooming camellias in a little garden at the Dallas Arboretum. I listened to the The Elegance of the Hedgehog audiobook last year, but I didn't really understand about camellias. There's still a note in my bathroom drawer brain from that book about "the always in the never."
Having a brain in a drawer is helpful for those three a.m. questions. When Dad walked up the hill from the bus stop after a day at work, we kids would meet him. Then we would watch him as he emptied the change from his pants pocket and the brains from his shirt pocket. Dad's brains were printed in neat draftsman lettering on tiny folded bits of paper. My brains are never so tidy.
© 2012 Nancy L. Ruder
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1/22/12
Moving on up
Drainage is good.
Elevation is, too.
I am thinking about homes in the Fifties and Sixties after watching the powerful movie, "Tree of Life". As a Sixties tree-climber, I loved being able to see a long way to the east from the hill in our backyard. I loved riding down the hill from our house to the swimming pool on my blue Schwinn, but not pedaling back up.
Having a house on a hill was important to my mother. Fritzi had vivid memories of flooding on the farm where she grew up. The farm was in the vicinity of Marion, which was never much more than a "populated place" on Little Beaver Creek between McCook, Nebraska and Oberlin, Kansas in the Republican River Basin. According to Mom, it was a dismal spot to be a child during the drought and Great Depression. Her stories always included kerosene lamps, mean roosters, and stinky flood waters.
My eldest, Mr. Speech-Debate, is experiencing the soggy Joys of Home Ownership in a rapid immersion program. After buying a starter home in Salem, Oregon last fall, he is dealing with flooding in Marion County in the Willamette River Valley. More particularly, there is flooding in the HVAC ducts of his home's crawl space. There is little I can do for him, beyond directing cosmic blow-dryer thoughts in a northwesterly direction.
Dad also needs cosmic blow-dryer thoughts directed his way, but he's a bit better today. He swallowed tiny bites of chocolate pudding and Gerber baby peaches, but couldn't manage mashed potatoes. He swallowed a couple ounces of water, then said, "little bit" when I asked if he would like to try some coffee. He moved his arm to adjust his eyeglasses, lifted the Styrofoam cup to his lips, and pointed his finger toward the photos on his bulletin board.
To bring this weekend story full circle, my youngest, the Woolly Mammoth, is moving to a new apartment in Washington, D.C. After a year and a half in a basement apartment, he is excited to have windows and city views. D.C. is, of course, the city of Marion Barry. I'll be glad not to fret about basement flooding if the river of Republican presidential candidates overflows in an rush of hot air and polluted water.
Dad is awash in oral secretions that clog the back of his throat. This problem has escalated over five years, although it is considered a symptom of the final stage of life. We keep the head of his bed elevated to promote drainage.
And for the polarizing film "Tree of Life", there is much to admire in the sets, costumes, locations, and glorious photography. Much, too, to consider about doing the best one can as a parent in any decade.
© 2012 Nancy L. Ruder
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1/21/12
Lavender pandas, Part II : Spirit guides
I really needed a walk before I visited Dad after school Friday. A curve of the trail focused my attention on a red-shouldered hawk sitting on a low branch. It sat and watched me as I tried to figure out the digital zoom feature on my camera.
Kept walking to the turn-around and headed back. The hawk was still sitting there and willing to pose for photos until I took three steps off the trail toward it. Then it flew to another low branch, still close to the trail. Again we played photo op. Again I took three steps from the trail, and the hawk flew.
From its third perch the hawk waited patiently while I walked to the trail junction and followed a new trail. We played the three step game, and the hawk flew, but to a tree I couldn't reach. I had to let go of the connection, but the feeling lingered that this had been an OTHER experience. If you look between the tree limbs you can see the hawk flying away in the late afternoon sunshine.
Bothering both a hawk and a heron in one walk seemed significant. A great sense of awe accompanied by support and light filled me. I knew I needed to communicate with Dad in an honest, authentic way, to share that support and light.
© 2012 Nancy L. Ruder
Kept walking to the turn-around and headed back. The hawk was still sitting there and willing to pose for photos until I took three steps off the trail toward it. Then it flew to another low branch, still close to the trail. Again we played photo op. Again I took three steps from the trail, and the hawk flew.
From its third perch the hawk waited patiently while I walked to the trail junction and followed a new trail. We played the three step game, and the hawk flew, but to a tree I couldn't reach. I had to let go of the connection, but the feeling lingered that this had been an OTHER experience. If you look between the tree limbs you can see the hawk flying away in the late afternoon sunshine.
Bothering both a hawk and a heron in one walk seemed significant. A great sense of awe accompanied by support and light filled me. I knew I needed to communicate with Dad in an honest, authentic way, to share that support and light.
I managed to tip a couple ounces of protein shake down Dad's throat only to provoke wrenching gurgles and rattles. "I know, Dad. I know." He stared deeply into my eyes, and I felt a locked-in connection beaming absolute love between us. "You don't have to be brave, Dad. I will do everything possible to make it not hurt." That is my solemn promise and responsibility.
© 2012 Nancy L. Ruder
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